9.11.2013

Worth

It is funny to me how much we are impacted and affected by our job or financial status. Our worth, apparently, is determined by whether or not we hold employment or how much bacon we bring home at the end of the day. It is... disconcerting to gauge the reaction of a person when they are told "I don't currently have a job." They look at you with something closely resembling pity.

I am not saying that money is always bad or that being unemployed is always good. I am not saying that at all. I am simply remarking on how we equate our worth to how much is written on our paychecks.

I am in the midst of a job hunt, myself. When handing in resumes today, I caught myself almost panicking about finding a job. I found myself thinking absurd thoughts: that, somehow, I would be less of a person if I didn't get a job at *this* place or *that* place, working *this* kind of position. That, ultimately, I would be a failure. And that, I believe, is where this entire problem stems. We hold our worth equal to the job we have because, somehow, that job--and the money made from it-- defines us as a person. Well, I don't know about you, but I find that absolutely ridiculous. How messed up are we to think that little pieces of 75% cotton, 25% linen paper determine our success and our failure as human beings?!

I am not defined by the money I make, or lack thereof. My struggle to find a job does not speak of my character. I am not a failure because of the circumstances of our economy. Thank you, God, for your everlasting grace and love for us... We rest in the shadow of the cross.